Unwelcomed phase

What is it now? Is this a new start? Is this what i have to face again? I dont know. I thought the moment I landed on this ground, the past has gone..i'm living a new life. But that doesn't seemed to be what i thought. Where can i express this time? How long can i endure this? How sure can i not be hurt? God, i have asked you countless times...and you gave me your peace just when i asked for it. But this time can i continue to stay that calm? What's gonna happen next? Is this gonna get far? I only wanted everything to be in it's place..but seems like everything has been expanded. I really dont know how i should handle this, uncertain if i cant stand any longer and I'm really tired. I cannot please everyone, like Jesus didnt get all the delights from the people. But I hope I am doing the right thing...that even if it doesnt pleases everyone, it pleases you. It's aching inside my heart but if this is your will, may it be done. I trust in you that you will never let your children carry the burdens that is over their limit. So is this that i place my hope in you.

You Lord, who has started the good plan in me will put an end when you are finished with me. Now that it's not done yet, help me to turn to you every time this pain stirred in me. Help me to believe you have allowed this for your purpose, that i will get the most out of every experience and at the end i will become a joyful person and be able to help other people out. "Consider it pure joy, my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverence. Perseverence must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:2-4" And it is declared by the Lord, "For i know the plans i have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future". So trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Also we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called to his purpose.

Take heart, God is not finished with me yet!

Everything will be alright, just hold on!

Breathe in...breathe out~