Thinking back now, my heart would still ache..tears would still flow...i know i have not been completely freed from the past. Well, no matter how hard i tried to let go, how hard i tried to forget; deep inside the pain still exists. But why? Masking myself from this is not the solution, telling it out could be worst? Because i dont like to tell, i can't tell, and i have no one to tell. But i know my Father understands, He knows how i feel. That is enough.
Well, i have been using my own strength too much. I have tried to settle things my own way. But it never works. Now is the time i turn back to You and simply listen to what You want to tell me. Since the day things started till now, i havent found the clue why things are the way they are.
I'm confused. Really confused. But for one thing i'm sure of is, i have to rely on You. Teach me to be still and listen to the voice of Truth. For only this truth can set me free, free from confusion, free from hurt.
What is it that You want me to learn out of this experience? What is the purpose? I need to know. Then teach me how to do things Your way. Because You're the chief, You know best!
I surrender my thoughts and everything to You. I wait on You to reveal Your ways to me. And i know, everything happens for a reason, a reason with divine purpose. In You i will trust! =)
Be still. Be still, and know that I am God. (Psalm 46:10)
Yeah, my God. My God that knows everything!
You make all things work together for my good. Amen.
tell out might not be the worst solution you know. Though God knows your pains, sometimes He needs people from the surrounding to aid you or push you. So find somebody to pour out your inner self.
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agree with ra!
ReplyDeletehaha, yes peeps! indeed i should and i am learning already. got improvement. hehe.. =)
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