Numb

Went to the dentist today! My first time, well sort of, other than the time I went while I was really young in which I have forgotten. I was only told that the visit was horrible! My parents said that I was being scolded badly by the dentist for crying because I was scared, and all I did was cry even harder. Yea, which kid wouldn't? Being fearful of the "scary man behind the mask" and worst, got scolded for that! That Mr. dentist must have been awfully fierce. But those were not recorded in my memory which is actually good as well. All I knew until today is that I don't dare to go to the dentist! Yet if it wasn't because of the cavity in my little tooth, there probably wouldn't be a chance for me to take that courage and visit one.

As I laid on the dental chair this morning, there was a peace and calm feeling that hovered over me, much to the opposite of what I would expect. And I saw Jesus standing right there in front of me smiling and saying, "Don't worry, It's going to be okay. I'll wait and be here with you through the whole process." Of course, I didn't see Him physically but spiritually. That was what made my heart settled in overwhelming peace. I don't know why the song "Beautiful Savior" started playing in my mind while the dentist reached out his hand and equipment into my mouth, but it's just so soothing. I'm glad He appeared although I'm just there to pluck a tooth off. He's still there for comfort. And it gives me more faith to trust in Him more in this as well as other situations. I'm only going for a dental surgery and He's there for me, what more to say when I'm going through big times?

The visit wasn't that bad after all. Though I still wished the other dentist had helped to pluck my tooth off, and not the one who attended to me cause' I heard the other one is better. Haha! Now I'm typing this while having a cotton stuffed into my mouth to ease the bleeding. I can still feel the numbness of the narcotic treatment, not only in my mouth but I think half of my head. You can guess that it's not comfortable. The doctor also provided paracetamol to kill the pain if it strikes after the numbness - which is what I dreaded most! But oh wells, it'll be alright, just as Jesus said. :)

He's like the numb that stops my pain, taking all to Himself so that I can be shielded!

At times when we feel we cannot do certain things because of self-quoted inadequacies or fears, Jesus will always be by our side helping and walking us through those moments. And when we feel we really had to give up, He appears and gives us a lift of strength, courage and peace to carry on. With God, all things are possible!

Jesus..my Comforter, my Prince of peace in whom my heart will trust!