Alright I’ll admit but that doesn’t mean I’ll surrender
Every time I try to act as if things are okay, they’re not
Every time I try to steady my emotions, I fail
You may not realize, cause’ I never show
I’m not trying to bring out my anger or frustration
But for once I’m trying to be honest to myself
That I cannot handle everything
That I’m living with this frustration inside of me
That I feel helpless when there are things that I can't seem to solve
I have my own problems to deal and I wish to calm the fuss that's strangling me
I have my own pressures to cope and I wish to escape the fret that's suffocating me
By this, I am not as good as you think I am
And I am not always the kind of me that you see
Maybe it’s the mask that I put on, but no I wore it not because I want to deceive
But because I’m unwilling to unfold the other side of me
You can say that I’m trying to disguise my weaknesses
Or maybe the fear of exposing the truth that I’m imperfect, whatever
Still I never express myself because I never knew how
Taking it all in is wearing me off day by day
I know this is unlikely what I would say
But please allow me to vent it out once in a while
Though I might regret writing this
But I guess I have to accept the fact that I’m clayed with brokenness
As no one is ever perfect, so am I
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And despite all those; I want to --
# Thank You for bearing all my sin and shame
# Thank You for lifting up the burdens I carry on my shoulder
# Thank You for listening to my complaints yet still loving me the way I am
# Thank You!
People, life is difficult if you try to handle everything by your own strength. Learn to give it all to Him and He will graciously grant you peace and all that you need. Other than that, learn to give thanks in your imperfection!
I can bear nothing if it weren’t You who bore my everything.
